frustrated

when you think things are going smooth. something always has to happen. as if it were mandatory. jeez why cant my life just give me one fucking break. im am pissed off at myself. im being so stupid and dont know what im saying. its all my fault. of course some random shit out of fucking nowhere has to come and ruin everything. its not that im mad at anyone, im just typing out my frustrations. what sucks the most is that most of the time its my fault! ah! i just want to stop dealing with all of this fucking gay shit. i feel like im stuck in a bottle. when im almost out, i just fall and have to start over. just once, only once, would i like to not worry about a single thing. that one thing can be my birthday gift, christmas gift, and other shit. i'll give anything for something like that. ANYTHING!

[not intended for anyone! just frustrations.]