weak and strong

i try to be positive about things. but sometimes the inevitable cannot be left alone. when i'm negative, it affects the people around me so i keep quiet. but when im happy, it only affects a small amount of people. some things are just too hard to not think about. and it makes me sad because now when i listen to songs that have meaning, i feel like crying sometimes because i feel weak. but thats just what i am, i am just weak. i give in, get emotional, dont know what i say, and cant stand on my own. i always need someone there. and when someone isnt there, i just end up falling again and again. im at my strongest when someone's there. someone that cares, will help, doesnt care about your flaws, and is always there when you need them. as much as i try and wish, i cant become independent of myself. but no matter how independent i will ever be, i need someone there.