miss them!

It’s the best feeling in the world when you get to see people that you haven’t seen in a long time and miss. It feels like shit when you leave and know its going to be a while till you see them. That’s how I feel right now… just to know that things like this happen really make me feel like shit and go sad face. What really sucks is that you know that this could have been possible in the past but I changed because of one decision. But seeing those people really warms your heart and leaving them really hurts your heart. Well at least mine. You never know if they will forget about you or if they will replace you just because you are not there. That’s a huge fear I have. Just the idea leaving them hurts. Its kills my heart when I think that im going to be replaced. It really really hurts when you KNOW its going to happen. They are my everything. The one thing I look forward to everyday. but I guess that’s how things have to be for now… i need them because i miss them..

feelings of replacement and loneliness are the worst in the world. it hurts you...