doesnt make sense

i dont know what to do anymore. ever since that one small incident, we dont talk anymore. its all weird now. to add on, parents just keep fighting. nothing happens at school, its all the same. go to school, classes, home, sleep, repeat. everything happens to me because im just quiet. i cant speak out or anything. when i cant say thing, i just stay quiet. people think "he doesnt want to talk to me". too much shit to concentrate on everything. it sounds all bad now because it is. there is no good side to this. not even one smile. and all this bull happens because i had to fucking move. what would have happened if i didnt move? so many possibilities. the pain is too much. now i wish i was sleep and never woke up. not as in dead but in peace. because my dreams are the one part of my life that i rest cause theres no stress. people just arent the same anymore. the way i used to look at them was the best. but whats the point of looking at people if you cant even look at yourself straight in the mirror? theres so much i would like to say but im so shy that it doesnt come out. and honestly, that just killed EVERYTHING. i hate being so horribly anal but i need to somewhere to say how i feel cause i cant put my thoughts into words cause it just sounds weird and doesnt make sense. it only makes sense on paper and the computer. fml for the mistakes i made and for the things that didnt come out of my mouth. it just sucks to be the shy one because no one can hear you and sometimes, nobody cares what you have to say.

sorry for the anal typing.