always happens

when you think you have everything you need and you think you are going to be fine, some fucking shit happens out of nowhere. im tired of this! i dont want to live my whole fucking life knowing im not trusted by anyone. yeah, im not what people expect. but you know what? thats me! i dont know what to do anymore. if you cant trust me, i dont know what to say. but you know what? its up to you. i wish i could just hide under my bed covers. basically, my life is really fucked. its weird i dont want to be lonely but i dont want to be talked to. but you know what they always say, shit happens! im not going suicidal or anything. im just losing hope